Love Is Blind (Redux)

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Hi gang!

Unfortunately, I still have my nose buried in ground school books this week.  I didn't have time to finish the piece I had originally planned for Roni's Let's Talk Blogfest, so I am substituting.  I put up "Love Is Blind" once before, but some of you might not have seen it yet--so enjoy!  You can check out all the other entries here.

Have a great week everyone, and I'll be back around when I have a chance to catch my breath this weekend.  Happy reading!



Love Is Blind 
(c) 2010 Jon Paul

    The minute I heard her voice, I gave Phillip a nudge. “Who’s that?”
    “By the kitchen?” he asked.
    “No, over near the living room window.”
    “Ahh. You sly dog, you.” The party wasn't loud, so he leaned in and whispered to me in a conspiratorial manner. "You have good ears, my friend. That's Sloan Brady. Lawyer. Boston College grad. Intelligent, great sense of humor, but...I don't know...."
    "What?"
    "She's a bit of a handfull."
    "So?"
    "Well, you know. I was thinking about Sarah and stuff."
    I could hear the tentativeness in Phillips voice. It had been a year since Sarah left me, walking out one Tuesday morning after breakfast, sending me a breakup text that afternoon. A week later, the moving guys showed up to get her stuff. She never told me why it was over, but I thought I knew the reason.
    The birthday party had been Phillip's idea. Get you out of your shell, he'd said. Meet a new girl. At the time I had agreed; maybe I was ready for something new, but now that it was time to step up to the plate, I wasn't so sure.
    Phillip laughed. I bet the look on my face told him exactly what I was thinking. "You want I should introduce you two?"
    "Do you think she'll have a problem with--"
    "I think there's only one way to find out."
    I took a drag of my beer. "What's she like?"
    "Well, you know. She is a woman. But...well. Maybe she'd be too much for you."
    "Too much? What does that mean?"
    "You know. Like you couldn't keep up with her. She's too smart, too witty. You're getting slow in your old age after all."
    "Funny, I thought it was graceful."
    Phillip chuckled. "Naw. Just slow."
    "The problem is I can't figure women out. I always think--"
    "Dude, I know. I know. We've been over this ground a hundred times. But you gotta pull the trigger sooner or later."
    "Yeah, I just wonder if now is the right time, when--"
    "Look, I don't care. You want me to ask her over or not?"
    I thought about it. It was now or never, right?
    "Ok. Sure."
    "Right. One hot lawyer introduction, coming up." Phillip walked away.
    I leaned against the wall and took a measured breath. I wasn't nervous; rather the need to relax before any first time run-in with a member of the opposite sex was an old reflex, operating in the same mental space as tying my shoes or straightening my tie before a big performance: I did it without thinking. I rarely noticed it, except when my Spidey-sense told me something unique might happen. Like now.
    Phillip returned with Sloan in tow. "Sloan, I'd like you to meet Eric."
    "Pleased to meet you." Her voice hinted at a cautious interest, exuding a chocolaty coolness like the hush of a bowstring gliding over a cello's middle register. I extended my hand and she gave it a refined shake.
    I waited a beat too long before I let go, then smiled at the faux pas. "Thanks for coming."
    "Thanks for having me. Happy Birthday."
    "Thank you."
    Phillip patted my shoulder. "I'll leave you two to get acquainted."
    Dress shoes clacked on the hardwood as Phillip disappeared into the clamor of music from the other room and left Sloan and I alone. Harvey Sneed, my music coach, was telling an off-color joke in the kitchen. The crowd's laughter kept the silence between us from becoming uncomfortable. I'd heard the joke before and Harvey told it well. With great fanfare, he delivered the punch line--"When pigs fly!"--and Sloan chuckled. The rest of the gang laughed too and groaned as Harvey started another joke.
    Sloan spoke again. "So this is your place?"
    "Yep."
    "How long you lived here?"
    "Let's see. Going on five years now, I think."
    She took a sip of her drink, like she was thinking. "I like your art."
    "Thanks."
    "No really. I mean--I don't mean to be, well--obvious--but how does a guy like you get such cool art to hang on your walls?"
    The art had been Phillip's idea too. When Sarah moved out, he said I needed to make a fresh start. Redecorate the apartment! he'd said. He helped me pick out the paintings. Actually he and Camille, a gallery owner he knew, picked them out. In the process, he tried to set me up with her, but in the end he said it would never work: she was too visual.
    The art was inexpensive. According to Phillip, the collection of pieces reflected my personality perfectly. Enough visitors had made similar comments in the last nine months that at some point I had started to believe it. Still, the fact that everyone made the same remarks about the art felt a little like a joke to me. I caught myself smiling and looked away. I could tell she was looking at me.
    "I hope that wasn't a rude question."
    "No. That's a good question, actually. People ask me that all the time."
    "Are your laughing at me?"
    "No. Sorry, I was thinking of something else."
    She reached out and pinched me hard on the forearm.
    "Hey," I said in mock alarm. "That's not fair."
    "Don't lie to me," she said, laughing herself. "I can smell a lie from a mile away."
    I liked her confidence. And her voice. I couldn't get over the sound of it, like a song far away and near at the same time.
    I reminded myself to take it slow. My affection for women ran in an easily recognizable pattern: meet a great girl, fall head over heels for her, go out for awhile, break up, pick up the pieces. And the girl always seems to think that my problems are the same as everyone else's problems. But they're not.  Funny.  My lifestyle seemed obvious enough, but the girl never understood it was going to be a problem until I had already committed one-hundred and ten percent. By then, it was too late.
    "So it's your birthday," she said.
    "Yeah."
    "What do you want?" I could feel her eyes on my face, appraising me. She let the suggestiveness in the question stand, gauging my response. I wondered if her directness rattled hostile witnesses when she cross-examined them on the stand.
    "Oh, you know. Cure for cancer. World peace. The usual things."
    "I see."
    I took a sip of my beer. "I hear you're a lawyer."
    "Yeah, pays the bills. You know."
    "So you...don't like it?"
    "I didn't say that. But it isn't my, shall we say, first love."
    "What's your first love?" I asked.
    "My aren't we nosy."
    "Sorry."
    "If this relationship is going to work, I'm going to have to ask you to show better discretion."
    "OK." I nodded and smiled like a schoolboy who'd learned his lesson.
     Sloan talked about her job. She worked in a law firm downtown--pretty prestigious from what I could tell. She'd been there for four years and guessed she might make partner in another five, if she really worked. She hated the office politics, the backstabbing. She couldn't trust anyone, which was a real adjustment for her because growing up she had always trusted everyone. She was constantly catching herself with her guard down and had now become super careful of anything she said. To her, it was like working in a police state.
     I nodded and smiled, trying to imagine her workplace, wondering what her office looked like. By the sound of it, the rest of the gang had moved from the kitchen out onto the patio. Phillip came by and asked if we needed anything. We requested another round of drinks and he said he'd be right back.
     Sloan said she wanted to sit down and so I led her carefully across the room, edging around the coffee table with my knee. We sat down on the couch together.
     "You know I saw you play once," she said with a hint of bravado.
     Here it comes, I thought. She's going to drop the standard line on me about how great my performance was, how she loved the concert, how the evening was such a treat for her. I loved playing the violin--it was my life--but the drudgery of going through the same story with a thousand different people over the years had taken its toll. I just couldn't bear to do it over and over again--almost verbatim--without busting into a sarcastic smile.
    I did what I could to keep a straight face. "So, how did you like it?"
    "I didn't think you were very good, actually."
    Ouch. I didn't see that coming. I waited for the joking laugh, but it became clear after a second that she was serious.
    "I guess you can't please everyone," I said.
    "I do remember reading in the papers that you were ill at the time--but went on with the show anyway. So there is that. Maybe it was just an off night."
    She didn't pull any punches, that was for sure. "Yeah, that was probably it."
    "But you know, I'm really no judge of music. I'm more a literature person."
    "Ah. I see."
    Phillip came back with our drinks.
    "For you Madame, a Bartles and James," Phillip said. "And for you, Eric, le Heineken."
    I took the beer from him. "Thanks, man."
    "Now Sloan," he said, "Go easy on the guy. It's his Birthday and all."
    "I'm being good," she said, laughing.
    "Alright. If you guys need anything, I'll be on the patio. Give me a holler."
    We thanked him and he left.

    I raised an eyebrow and gave her my best skeptical squint. "Bartles and James?"
    "Hey, leave me alone."
    "It's just that I don't think I've heard of anyone drinking a Bartles and James since college."
    "And your point is?"
    I thought about this for a moment. "Let's see. All the really wild and crazy fraternity chicks drank Bartles and James. You're drinking Bartles and James. Er go--"
    "I don't like where this conversation is going, buster."
    "Noted."
    "I happen to like wine coolers. I know it's weird, but there it is. Take it or leave it."
    "Thanks for setting me straight."
    "You're welcome."
    Despite my reservations, I really liked this girl. In my head, I counted the reasons why I didn't need to be in a new relationship right now. It didn't help that she seemed to be taking me seriously. It didn't help that the flavor of her shampoo--vanilla with a sweet trace of jasmine--kept drifting over in my direction.
    She nudged me. "So how old are you anyway?"
    "Twelve. Obviously."
    She laughed in a way that told me she liked that. "No really."
    "I'm an old man."
    "How old?"
    "Twenty-nine."
    She sat up. "Wow! That is old!"
    "I told you."
    "I don't know if I should be seen hanging around with an old fogey like you."
    "I heard old fogeys are cool. At least that's what they tell me."
    "Who's they?"
    "You know. 'They.' You gotta believe them if it's they."
    She lolled her head back on the couch and leaned her body in to mine ever so slightly. I felt the skin of her shoulder against my upper arm. We sipped our drinks.  The rhythm of her breathing came to my ear in an even and uninterrupted ebb.  The noise in the rest of the room felt far away, washed out. In the stillness of our proximity, a subtle electric charge played between us like static.
    She brushed her hand on my thigh. " I have to tell you something."
    "OK."
    "I have an uncle who's blind."
    "You do?"
    "He's my favorite uncle, in fact. I used to go over to his house every day after school. You know, stay there until my folks got home from work."
    "Yeah."
    "I used to play a game with him. I had this stuffed bear that he would ask me to hide anywhere in the house. I'd run off and find the hardest hiding spot I could think of, and put the bear there. Then when I came back, I would close my eyes and count to ten. He would smile real big and tell me exactly where I hid it. Every single time. It was pretty unbelievable."
    "That sounds cool."
    "But the thing that impressed me most was that he knew people really well. It didn't matter that he couldn't see them. He knew when they were lying, and knew when they were trying to hide something from him. He could always tell. It was like magic.  I wish I was more like that."
    I listened, not sure what I should say. It wasn't unusual for a blind person to have better hearing than a normal person. Her uncle could probably tell from the noise Sloan made where she was hiding the bear. As for knowing when people were lying, I didn't have the first clue.
    She leaned into me. Her breathing had shallowed; she was thinking. "Do you think people are stupid?" she asked.
    The question was odd. "What do you mean?"
    "I mean, do you think people are generally stupid. You know. Most people. Do you think they do dumb things?"
    I could think of a few dumb things I'd done in the past. "Yeah, I guess so."
    "I do too. That's what everyone thinks. But you know what?"
    "What?"
    "Even though people think that other people are dumb, they always consider themselves to be smart. Have you ever noticed that?"
    I thought about it for second. She was right.
    She went on. "All my clients think that. We march into court and every one of them is somehow convinced that they're bulletproof. They think the judge and the prosecutor and everyone else is dumb, but somehow they're not. Somehow they're smarter than everyone else."
    "Yeah, I guess that makes sense."
    "But I'm just going to admit it to myself."
    "Admit what?"
    "We should all be allowed to do something crazy once in awhile. Right? Even if it's dumb."
    "Sure, I guess."
    She put her hand on mine, and my heart rate ticked up a notch. Gently, she lifted my hand, guided it across the space between us until the tips of my fingers touched her face. I could feel the warmth of her cheek, her skin smooth, pleasing. She pressed my hand up in a slow arc, gently, taking her time, and I began to understand the shape of her face. She had high cheekbones, just as I'd imagined them; a small mouth; a pert nose; the delicate curve of her chin expressed a sleek grace, an innate determination. I could tell her beauty could be both hard and soft, depending on her mood.
    I wondered what color her hair was--my guess was brunette--and imagined blue eyes as cloudy and mysterious as river water. My fingers brushed the eyebrow at her right temple; I felt her breath on the inside of my wrist and the faraway rhythm of her pulse. She smiled beneath my fingers, guided my thumb along the supple fold of her upper lip, and I contemplated what it would be like to wrap one arm around her waist, tug her to her feet, slow dance to the rock ballad on the radio.
    She turned her head to the side, into my palm. The idea of kissing her fluttered through my thoughts, but I knew that wasn't in the cards. For a second I thought I heard her humming, but then decided it was my imagination. A flurry of eyelashes brushed my fingers as she opened her eyes and looked at me.
    "I love your hands," she said.
    I smiled. "Thanks. I work out."
    She sighed, the subtle indication that she was enjoying this, but that we had had our fun, that the tour was over. She let my wrist go and my hand fell to my lap; I still felt the hot tingle of a buzz in the pit of my stomach.
    "I hate to run," she said. I could tell from her voice that she was sort of putting the pieces together, that what had just happened had been as unexpected for her as it was for me. "I have an early deposition in the morning. All the way across town."
    I was careful to keep any hint of disappointment out of my voice. "Sure. No problem."
    "Thanks for letting me come to your party. It was really fun."
    "Anytime. You know, strangely, this happens about once a year, so consider yourself invited next year too."
    She paused, as if wondering what to say next. I made sure the smile on my face stayed plastered there, and didn't falter.
    "I...I'm a little embarrassed. I'd like to give you my number. But...how do I do that?"
    "What? You don't read Braille?"
    She laughed, relieved.
    I pulled out my cell-phone and handed it to her. "Just put your number in there."
    She typed it in, and though there was a voice in my head still saying "Slow, slow", I couldn't help but notice the air of excitement coalescing in the back of my brain.
    "555-8743," I said.
    She handed the phone back to me. "Wow. That's impressive. You've got a good ear."
    "I took a college class on it. 'Fundamentals of Cell Phone Key Tone Scales 101'. I got an 'A'."
    "Figures." She laughed, then leaned over and kissed me on the cheek. "I gotta go. Call me."
    Then she was gone. I must have been smiling like an idiot when Phillip came over, because he knew what happened even before I told him.
    "You dirty dog, you!" he said. "Got her number and everything. Man, that was like twenty-five minutes. You work fast."
    "Well you know, all I gotta do is lay that Al Pacino Scent of a Woman shtick on them and they become like putty in my hands."
    "Right. So really. What'd you think of her?"
    "I...I think she's...." And I didn't want to say it, but it felt like the truth. "It's far too early to make any firm conclusions, you understand...but I think she's almost perfect."
    "That's what I knew you'd say."
    "Knew I'd say? You were telling me she was too much for me--'you're getting slow in your old age'--etcetera, etcetera. Don't go taking credit for it now."
    He patted me on the knee. "Now Eric. Do you honestly believe, as stubborn and mule-headed as you are, that if I told you I had the absolute perfect girl for you to meet, you'd say yes?"
    I thought about this. "No. I guess not."
    "Exactly. Case closed."
    "You don't have to gloat about it."
    "Oh, and one more thing."
    "Yeah?"
    "Happy Birthday."
~~fin~~

19 bolts from the blue:

Donna Hole said...

This is so complex, on so many levels. The story unfolds so smoothly. Your transitions from paragraph to paragraph, thought to though, concept to next; all expertly paced. Giving the reader just the right amount of narrative and action dialogue.

I am awed at the way you introduced that he was blind; the tragedies behind the knee injury and the loss of loves. What a beautiful, heartwarming man; and such a confident love interest.

There was tension and expectation here, but no pity. The awkwardness was all about the first meeting; getting to know each other as people.

A complete short story in dialogue, with just the right amount of narrative to fill in the gaps and eliminate the "talking heads" syndrome.

You have such a gift for writing people; making them unique and engaging. Well done for this post.

Hope everything is going smoothly for you in training.

..........dhole

.........dhole

propinquity said...

I'm glad you used this piece. It's perfect.

Summer said...

I remember this one, and I still love it as much as I did the first time. :-)

Christine H said...

Wow! Really, really good. I love reading work from a guy's perspective for a change, that doesn't involve blowing things up. It's such a different world, and you really have a special knack.

Charity Bradford said...

Amazing. You had me with this description--
Her voice hinted at a cautious interest, exuding a chocolaty coolness like the hush of a bowstring gliding over a cello's middle register.

Wow, so many things. I didn't know he was blind until close to the bottom. All the dialogue, descriptions ect. were great.

~Nicole Ducleroir~ said...

This story unfolded with such graceful fluidity, and the twist midway through took me by delicious surprise. I loved every word, every nuance. You have a wonderful, engaging style. Bravo!

laurel said...

I adore the slow reveal of his blindness and being in this guy's head. It's so natural that he makes no visual references whatsoever and I'm in complete awe and want to read this again and again! The smooth build of tension and deliciously funny banter all add up to awesome. Thanks so much for sharing this!

Lola Sharp said...

I'm swooning over this, JP. I wouldn't edit one single change. It was perfect. The slow reveal, yet steady tension, was delightful. This piece has it all. Excellent job!

Amalia T. said...

It took me a while to cotton on to the fact that he was blind-- the lack of physical description just felt natural, especially considering the theme of a dialogue festival-- but I was totally at a loss as to why she jumped to the story about the blind uncle until I realized he couldn't see! That made the conversation make a lot more sense and did away with most of my reservations. The dialogue between him and Phillip was great! The teasing, the flow, it all went together perfectly.

K.M. Weiland said...

Great use of dialogue. Has a very realistic feel.

Tricia J. O'Brien said...

Oh. My. I hadn't read this one before, Jon, and it is fantastic. First off, I didn't realize he was blind until way into it, so I went back and read how you described everything. One word for that-masterful. It was funny, poignant, real.

Roni @ FictionGroupie said...

I had missed this one the first time, so I'm glad you reposted. Really enjoyed it and loved your descriptions.

Thanks for participating!

Tara said...

Oh wow. Unbelievable and stunning. This is as close to perfect as it gets, JP.

Jojomama said...

First of all...and then...especially...SIGH. Seriously though, this was smooth as silk and full of subtle surprises. You are quite the marksman. Dang.
Thanks for sharing.
You know it's good. (;
http://jostorm.blogspot.com/

Just Another Sarah said...

I missed this, the first time around--though I think I may have taken part in the blogfest. It seems familiar, anyway.

And it's just a shame, because it was beautiful. I was sucked in right away, and I don't always have the attention for something like this. Thanks for sharing it!

C R Ward said...

Wow, this was amazing! Nice job!

loislane said...

Best one I've read so far (including mine sadly). Good luck with the school work. If you're interested in YA at all, check out my blog.
http://idevourkidbooks.blogspot.com/

ralfast said...

Great how we find out that he is blind, just seems like he is talking in a way men talk that have nothing to do with it.

Very good!

Wine and Words said...

Nothing...nothing can draw me into a man more than whitty repartee! Delightful read, smooth and mellifluous. ..."exuding a chocolaty coolness like the hush of a bowstring gliding over a cello's middle register." I tasted that. Sure enough I did. Smelled the rosin. You write conversation very well. I happen to suck at it, perhaps in person as well.

Came over from Glnroz. Thanks!

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